Monday, September 29, 2008

To be incredibly blessed.

As I sit here in the Teen Ranch dining hall, hanging out with my co-worker Keegan, and looking out at the beauty of the Ranch, I came to the conclusion that I am incredibly blessed right now.

It's easy to look at the negatives -- I'm not paid a lot, I work a lot of hours, and I have to rely on others to get me to and from work. It's always easy to look at those negatives.

But, when I look at the positives I realize how much they outweigh everything else. I have awesome co-workers here. We all have our moments of being stressed out and foolish, but we all work well together, and for the most part, enjoy one another's company. I have the opportunity to practice my faith at work on a level that I can't normally in a secular workplace. I can talk openly about my faith, my struggles, pray with my co-workers, and explore ideas of life. I work in a place that is surrounded by beautiful scenery, provides me with the opportunity to ride a horse, skate on the ice, or do what I feel during my off time.

For the first time in years, I feel happy when I come to work. I don't ever wake up thinking 'oh man, I really don't want to go to work today' as I have with every other job I've had. I've connected in ways with some of the staff here that makes me long to come to work, just so that I can spend even an ounce of time hanging out with them.

For the first time in a while, I feel like somebody. I feel like I'm someone people want to be around, that I have potential, and even moreso, that people are interested in being friends with me.

I have so much to be thankful for working here. I only hope that I can continue to look at all the positives over the negatives.