I'm finding it more and more of a nuisance to be stuck at home with this horrid knee injury. I keep feeling as if it's not that bad of an injury, and I should be doing more. But I can't. Mom was not very pleased to hear I went out for a bit today. I wasn't really out that long, but I guess it was long enough to make my knee blow back up.
It turns out I have more to fear from this injury than I thought. Apparently, if I don't rest and let it heal properly, the clot can work its way up instead of down, and eventually clog my lungs or explode in my brain. I hate that my parents told me about that, because I keep panicking about the little lumps I feel, or where the pain is coming from. And because, in order to stop myself from panicking, I tend to force myself to do more than I should.
I just want it to heal so that I can get back to the ranch, get back to work, and start making money again. Most of all... I don't want to have to be afraid of what could happen if I overdo it.
On another side of things, my meds seem to be kicking in now. I'm thinking that my fears were correct in the wondering if it was the time of year and everything that was just causing them to take a long time to work in my system. I've been feeling much more balanced out in the last couple of weeks. I've only had one bipolar episode that I can recall in the last few weeks, and one blow up (though that was caused by my brother, who for some reason I can't help but get pissed off around).
Another thing I've noticed in the last few weeks, and something I've received comments on is the little bit of maturing I seem to have done. I don't know if its translated into my actions and the way I present myself yet, but my line of thinking is changing. It's changing enough that I'm beginning to notice a difference. Feeling more like.... an adult I guess.
As far as my New Year's Resolutions are concerned, I've been doing fairly well so far. Written three chapters on various stories, read the first 10 chapters of one of my new Star Wars books, and lost 3 pounds over the last week. Haven't delved into the bible yet, though I think that has more to do with me not having my bible handy and sitting around feeling useless, and less to do with a lack of a desire to do anything about it. I'm gonna try to get on track soon though.
Anyways... thats tonight's update... I'll write more later.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
Writing Challenge
So in lieu of one of my New Year's Resolutions, which was to write every day, I have started a new challenge for myself.
Every month I am going to give myself a new writing project, whether it be poetry, essays, novels, short stories, or fanfics. In the last several months, it seems while my passion to write has not fizzled out, my drive to do so has disappeared. I went from writing almost daily, to barely writing a blog every few weeks, to every few months. Not good, especially not for someone who intends to make a career out of writing.
Along with this challenge, I am also challenging myself to read more. I remember when reading was another one of my great passions, now I rarely read. I had gotten back into the habit when I was at my apartment, but not living up the street from a bookstore anymore means I have to make more of an effort. But before I expand on that one, I'm going to break each challenge into a section. Along with these challenges, I'm going to blog my progress on my resolutions at least once a week, breaking them down one by one. Although the world doesn't necessarily need to know how I'm faring, I believe it will help me keep myself accountable.
WRITING CHALLENGE
January's writing challenge, to get me back into the habit of writing regularily, is two write two Narnia fanfics. One, my usual fun 'what if I was in the story', in an attempt to bring back my humourous edge to my writing (which I seem to have lost), and the other, an original fic with none of the Narnia characters, save for Aslan and an elderly Lucy Pevensie. While they will probably not be full length novels, my goal is to have them finished by February 1.
READING CHALLENGE
My reading challenge is to read at least three books a month. For the month of January I have the Star Wars: Dark Lord Trilogy, which I borrowed from Luke. They are combined into one book, which I'm hoping will get me to read through it faster. I've got three other books ready to be started, along with 3 or 4 non-fiction books I've had sitting on my shelf that I want to get through.
BIBLE IN ONE YEAR
I'm already a few days behind on this one, mostly because my bible is back at the ranch. But I think tomorrow, since I'm stuck at home still from my accident, I will borrow mom's bible and catch up to where I'm supposed to be. According to the plan, it says it will take about 20 minutes a day, so I figure I've got a good hour and a bit of reading to do. But that's okay... I like reading.
FAITH/GOD
I'm going to really make a point to start doing daily devos and spending time in prayer again. This means I'll be starting up my prayer journal again. I don't know why, but I find it a lot of times easier to focus on praying when I'm writing out my prayer, rather than just thinking it in my head.
WEIGHT LOSS
This week isn't going to be able to count in my goal, as we are having a church-wide fast. I'll start working on it beginning next Monday.
DEBTS/CAR
This one will be tough. I'm going to limit myself to 20$ a month spending money. That however doesn't include necessary things like toiletries, feminine stuff, medication, or taxi's to and from work on the weekends. That is strictly me stuff. I want to have my Visa paid off by February, and mom and dad with a big dent in the debt I owe them. The car can only come as quickly as I get my debts paid off, which means I really need to start managing my money better.
Every month I am going to give myself a new writing project, whether it be poetry, essays, novels, short stories, or fanfics. In the last several months, it seems while my passion to write has not fizzled out, my drive to do so has disappeared. I went from writing almost daily, to barely writing a blog every few weeks, to every few months. Not good, especially not for someone who intends to make a career out of writing.
Along with this challenge, I am also challenging myself to read more. I remember when reading was another one of my great passions, now I rarely read. I had gotten back into the habit when I was at my apartment, but not living up the street from a bookstore anymore means I have to make more of an effort. But before I expand on that one, I'm going to break each challenge into a section. Along with these challenges, I'm going to blog my progress on my resolutions at least once a week, breaking them down one by one. Although the world doesn't necessarily need to know how I'm faring, I believe it will help me keep myself accountable.
WRITING CHALLENGE
January's writing challenge, to get me back into the habit of writing regularily, is two write two Narnia fanfics. One, my usual fun 'what if I was in the story', in an attempt to bring back my humourous edge to my writing (which I seem to have lost), and the other, an original fic with none of the Narnia characters, save for Aslan and an elderly Lucy Pevensie. While they will probably not be full length novels, my goal is to have them finished by February 1.
READING CHALLENGE
My reading challenge is to read at least three books a month. For the month of January I have the Star Wars: Dark Lord Trilogy, which I borrowed from Luke. They are combined into one book, which I'm hoping will get me to read through it faster. I've got three other books ready to be started, along with 3 or 4 non-fiction books I've had sitting on my shelf that I want to get through.
BIBLE IN ONE YEAR
I'm already a few days behind on this one, mostly because my bible is back at the ranch. But I think tomorrow, since I'm stuck at home still from my accident, I will borrow mom's bible and catch up to where I'm supposed to be. According to the plan, it says it will take about 20 minutes a day, so I figure I've got a good hour and a bit of reading to do. But that's okay... I like reading.
FAITH/GOD
I'm going to really make a point to start doing daily devos and spending time in prayer again. This means I'll be starting up my prayer journal again. I don't know why, but I find it a lot of times easier to focus on praying when I'm writing out my prayer, rather than just thinking it in my head.
WEIGHT LOSS
This week isn't going to be able to count in my goal, as we are having a church-wide fast. I'll start working on it beginning next Monday.
DEBTS/CAR
This one will be tough. I'm going to limit myself to 20$ a month spending money. That however doesn't include necessary things like toiletries, feminine stuff, medication, or taxi's to and from work on the weekends. That is strictly me stuff. I want to have my Visa paid off by February, and mom and dad with a big dent in the debt I owe them. The car can only come as quickly as I get my debts paid off, which means I really need to start managing my money better.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
New Year's Resolutions
Every year, millions of people make pointless resolutions that they know they're never going to keep, but make them anyway. Why? Well, they can be fun. And often they start off with good intent.
This year, I really hope to achieve my goals. I'm enlisting the help of family and friends, because I believe these are goals that HAVE to be achieved in order for me to move forward in life.
I wouldn't specifically call them New Year's Resolutions, since I made them before the new year, but I am writing them as a list anyway. It will be interesting to see which ones I achieve by this time next year, and which ones flounder and fizzle into the world of non-existance.
THE LIST
Hahahaa.... so that's all...
Happy New Year everyone!
This year, I really hope to achieve my goals. I'm enlisting the help of family and friends, because I believe these are goals that HAVE to be achieved in order for me to move forward in life.
I wouldn't specifically call them New Year's Resolutions, since I made them before the new year, but I am writing them as a list anyway. It will be interesting to see which ones I achieve by this time next year, and which ones flounder and fizzle into the world of non-existance.
THE LIST
- Fix my self-esteem. I need to be able to think of myself better, on the outside and the inside.
- Pay off all my debts ASAP. I'm tired of just owing money.
- Lose the last 30lbs I need to lose.
- Read the bible in one year
- Grow in my faith and relationship with God
- Get a car
- Get a boyfriend
- Get a novel published
Hahahaa.... so that's all...
Happy New Year everyone!
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